A New Chapter

It has been awhile since I have written anything here... Perhaps because I may forgotten that I have this blog space. Anyways I write now because I feel like I need an outlet. I am now completely done with treatment. It has been 7 months since I finished my last round of chemo. I am now living in Nashville to pursue a graduate degree. A Ph.D degree in fact. I start school in 2 weeks...I havent done school or been in a labratory setting in 3 years... I am scared to say the least. My class is full of people that have been researching non-stop. I am at a huge disadvantage and thats whats scares me the most. I am in Nashville alone with only my dog to remind me of home. I miss home. I miss Carlos. I feel like I was given a second chance at life. And with that chance I feel like I need to do something extraordinary with my life. Discover something that will make an impact. But I find myself wondering how to go ahead with this new chapter. I have told one person about my diagnosis here, was not planning too but it came out like word diaherrea. I want to go ahead with this new chapter, have a fresh start in this new city. I just dont know how too... How to move on from cancer patient to fully recovered grad student...